[Sakyou really holds his life in very low regard, so the only reason he did it at all was for people like Kaine, and Mandricardo, and others that he knew were hurting every Friday, every Saturday, every Sunday. He's also glad he fought, but only for them. If he had no one he feared hurting, he would have just accepted the mafia's choice without a fight.
He won't dwell on it now, though - not those parts, anyway. Instead, he focuses on Mandricardo being HEART-PUNCHINGLY SWEET... The last time he said "I love you" to someone, things went horrifically wrong that same evening, so he's more than just a little gunshy. At the same time, though... Well. Who knows what tomorrow will bring? Who knows what situation will meet him, back home? The reason he wrote those letters is because he didn't want his soul to rest ill at ease with thoughts and feelings he never conveyed.]
...You really are too kind. [Quietly, at first. Full of the belief of an irrefutable truth.] I've come to love and cherish you as someone very dear to me, as well. [Mandricardo and so many others - more than he expected, more than he thinks he deserves.] You've been one of the reasons I could continue moving forward here, no matter how difficult things were. And knowing that you would mourn for me in such a way... It isn't something I ever expected to have. "Thank you" doesn't feel like enough, but it is all that I have to give.
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He won't dwell on it now, though - not those parts, anyway. Instead, he focuses on Mandricardo being HEART-PUNCHINGLY SWEET... The last time he said "I love you" to someone, things went horrifically wrong that same evening, so he's more than just a little gunshy. At the same time, though... Well. Who knows what tomorrow will bring? Who knows what situation will meet him, back home? The reason he wrote those letters is because he didn't want his soul to rest ill at ease with thoughts and feelings he never conveyed.]
...You really are too kind. [Quietly, at first. Full of the belief of an irrefutable truth.] I've come to love and cherish you as someone very dear to me, as well. [Mandricardo and so many others - more than he expected, more than he thinks he deserves.] You've been one of the reasons I could continue moving forward here, no matter how difficult things were. And knowing that you would mourn for me in such a way... It isn't something I ever expected to have. "Thank you" doesn't feel like enough, but it is all that I have to give.