[A little bit of the teasing edge leaves his tone at that, and he's quiet for a second.]

...It's strange, and perhaps an unkind thing to say, given how many tears this place has wrung from other so far... But I think I've had more reason to smile here than I have in years.

[He feels guilty about it! Guilty as hell! But it's also not... entirely bad.

Very sad though perhaps considering how few and far between and very very tiny his smiles are even now.]