[also adds this thought Why would...anyone hate you...?]

...I did to Beau, weeks ago. But at the time, I think I messed it up. And I just...talked about how I didn't want to hurt her with my own emotions. And she said that was okay, it wasn't a competition, but...

[A beat.]

I think that was wrong. I mean...to see her goin' around with Otome like...she had done nothin' at all. That she didn't kill Wang Lu. That they both could have everything they wanted, and nobody dared to complain, and I was just...supposed to let it happen after seeing my boyfriend dead on a table. And Otome herself...

[He's just uncomfortable, now. It's hard, to talk about this mess of emotions.]

And now...I just feel maybe it's better for them that I don't get involved at all.