It's not the type of life I want.

[Aren't you glad he's Vibing because otherwise he'd be a lot more emotional here. He's just explaining things matter-of-factly.]

But at the same time, I don't have much skills or really any abilities to get what I want. I thought I was on top of the world, when I was alive. And that was a mistake. I was killed because of that view. So now it's hard to think of that, without thinking of failure coming afterwards.