[Emotions really are a hotass mess! Wow. They are both some messy, messy lads.
He shifts just a little, speaking more toward Mandricardo's neck than his shoulder directly.]
I'll apologize anyway. It's the most I can do for now.
[It doesn't make him feel well, but it at least lets him feel like he's doing something, which is better than nothing at all. His eyes close for a moment. He's tired. The hand tucking hair behind his ear is soothing, and he wishes he could just be dead and done with it - at least, part of him wishes for that. It's the part he personally thinks is less selfish.
He really is rotten.
...He laughs, just a little. Self-deprecating and wry.]
Though I'm surprised you'd say you're grateful for this date. I do think they're not meant to go this way. [...] You always seem to end up having to try comforting me for this or that. It would be good if you tire of it.
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He shifts just a little, speaking more toward Mandricardo's neck than his shoulder directly.]
I'll apologize anyway. It's the most I can do for now.
[It doesn't make him feel well, but it at least lets him feel like he's doing something, which is better than nothing at all. His eyes close for a moment. He's tired. The hand tucking hair behind his ear is soothing, and he wishes he could just be dead and done with it - at least, part of him wishes for that. It's the part he personally thinks is less selfish.
He really is rotten.
...He laughs, just a little. Self-deprecating and wry.]
Though I'm surprised you'd say you're grateful for this date. I do think they're not meant to go this way. [...] You always seem to end up having to try comforting me for this or that. It would be good if you tire of it.