[Mandricardo feels terrible, too, but terrible in the way one stands, unknowing of how to help a person who is obviously suffering. Its a futile, helpless, sad sort of feeling, and yet....and yet.....]
[He's somehow happy, all the same. Emotions really are messy, huh. More of a mess than anything in the world.]
Y'know, you keep talkin' about how...you can only choose one thing or another. How you can have your revenge, and scatter your life, or stay back and allow yourself everything you want. But I don't think you have the right idea. I think...you can have both. You can have your mountains, but you can have your superficial dreams, too. Being selfish is okay. It may seem odd, to you, but I think they can coexist.
[One can strive for lofty goals, but carry quiet, small, selfish dreams in their heart. Just like the selfish dream made true to know that...he's made Sakyou happy.]
[His hand tucks some of the other's hair behind an ear, gently.]
You can be cruel to those demons of yours. You should be. But you shouldn't be so cruel to yourself, I think.
[Which is real hypocritical of him to say, but look. Look.]
You shouldn't apologize. Like I said...I'm happy you're happy. That outweighs anything that you think you're doing to me. I'm here for you, as your friend, always...okay?
[Emotions really are a hotass mess! Wow. They are both some messy, messy lads.
He shifts just a little, speaking more toward Mandricardo's neck than his shoulder directly.]
I'll apologize anyway. It's the most I can do for now.
[It doesn't make him feel well, but it at least lets him feel like he's doing something, which is better than nothing at all. His eyes close for a moment. He's tired. The hand tucking hair behind his ear is soothing, and he wishes he could just be dead and done with it - at least, part of him wishes for that. It's the part he personally thinks is less selfish.
He really is rotten.
...He laughs, just a little. Self-deprecating and wry.]
Though I'm surprised you'd say you're grateful for this date. I do think they're not meant to go this way. [...] You always seem to end up having to try comforting me for this or that. It would be good if you tire of it.
[Wow. You know, saying stuff on his own is one thing. Having to listen to similar things coming from someone else's mouth is...very different.]
...You're really giving me a run for my money here as a gloomy guy, Sakyou.
[He says, with a slightly amused huff - the hand at Sakyou's ear tweaks it, a little playfully. His attempt at lightening the mood which is, in Mandricardo's opinion, extremely wild for an introvert like him.]
But anyways, I...like this date. Because I like you. [There's a beat here, his cheeks warm as he tilts his head and leans against Sakyou.] And I wouldn't be a good friend if I...tired of comforting you. That's what friends do, right?
[This game is literally just Have A Taste Of Your Own Medicine You Fool: The Extended Experience.
He is absolutely a gloomy guy though, damn. But it appears Mandricardo's attempt to bring some levity into the situation works at least a little, since he's able to leave at least the heaviest of that surge of self-loathing to the side for the time being. JUST TWO FRIENDS GENTLY LEANING AGAINST EACH OTHER IN FRONT OF THE SKATE RINK the NPCs are probably waggling their brows as they skate by...
There's a beat but he eventually straightens his posture back up again, pulling away from Mandricardo and the comfort there, if only by a little. Just so he can look him in the eye, even though it feels a bit like he's saying impossible things.]
...I suppose it is. I hope that I can return the kindness that you've shown me, someday. Properly. I'm not sure I'll be able to, but- [...] -I'll give it all that I have.
[He's still torn, he still wants to push Mandricardo away, but... that little selfish part of him that wants happiness for himself figures he might as well do things right if he's going to stick around. "I'm sorry" is on the tip of his tongue again, but he bites it back for now.]
...Shall we skate, then? I think I've taken up quite enough of our time with this.
[Returning kindness...? There's a little smile, a shake of the head.]
You're already returning the kindness just by being here, Sakyou.
[His hands shift up to cup the other's cheeks, and he stares at him for a moment. Sakyou, Sakyou, Sakyou. This impossibly bitter man, full of self-hatred to the brim, yet...he's the one who asked out Mandricardo on this date, isn't he?]
[He leans in and presses his lips against the other's forehead before drawing back completely. A gentle gesture, like a promise.]
...Eh, I'm the one who was wastin' time... [A scratch of the cheek, sheepish, as he casts his gaze to the skating rink.] But sure. I don't really know how, though...
[There's a brief moment where he looks surprised - nearly startled - by the gesture. Despite the kindness so many have shown him here, he's still not used to it.
But it's a soft and pleasant thing that sets his heart at ease, chasing away some of the gloom with an undeniable warmth. Hah... And Mandricardo had said he was like the sun. As he pulls back, Sakyou reaches forward, gently taking Mandricardo's hand in his own. A careful hold, as though to make up for the harshness of just a few moments prior. He gives it a very light squeeze and keeps it in his grasp.]
There is no time wasted with you.
[Sappy as hell! Embarrassing! He ducks his head a little, and is then quick to shift and move toward wherever the hell the skates are, talking as he goes.]
That's fine - I'll show you what I've learned, though I'm not so great at it myself just yet.
[And when Sakyou ducks his head, he flusters, his cheeks a rosy pink - ah, did he really just do that? Guess he did. He won't take it back. He'll gladly let Sakyou take his hand as they move to the skating rink.]
Oh, you've done it before? It kinda looks complicated, but...fun, too.
[Gross soft lads. Can't wait for Sakyou specifically to die!
Anyway, he looks... vaguely sheepish at that...]
Ah... Well, not really. Rather - I practiced a bit earlier today, but it's harder than it looks. [He sucks at it and also his legs are still broken.] But it was fun, and I thought you might enjoy it, too. Once you get the hang of it, it's easier.
[Also clinging to the wall like a lifeline helps!]
Well, anythin' needs practice, some stuff more than others. So like, to be expected. I really never thought one could move over ice like this, but I saw pictures in books of like...people jumping. It's real pretty.
[BINCH YOU DIED FIRST LAST TIME, ME FIRST THIS TIME.]
Ah... I couldn't even imagine doing that. Just going in a straight line is a bit challenging.
[At least he's honest. ANYWAY, GRABBIN SOME SKATES and then handing a pair to Mandricardo! He'll move over to a bench soon after so he can start putting them on. Carefully. Non-broken-ankle foot first.]
[He thinks Sakyou is a lot more graceful than he is. But cool! Blade shoes! He'll sit next to the other, starting to put them on, but...looking with concern over at that ankle.]
[ABSOLUTELY NOT KICKFLIPS MYSELF OFF AND INTO HELL.
Anyway he's just smiling! Reassuringly! Don't worry about it.]
I've already managed once or twice well enough. I just can't move as quickly as I'd otherwise be able to, most likely.
[He says most likely because he doesn't actually know how fast he'd be able to travel on ice skates without broken legs. He's got good balance but knife shoes are a different ballgame...]
[And he's got his on, too - its a bit weird "walking" on them for the little distance he has to go to the rink, but he'll reach out to hold Sakyou's hand.]
[haha wouldn't it be funny if we died in a gay skating accident and had to retcon it, anyways]
[And...wow. Ice skating! He is definitely spreading legs wide and throwing out his free hand to keep balance, but....well, he's done well with weird tricks on horses, so this isn't too bad. For now.]
[may this skating rink last forever so we can die in a gay skating accident in the future--
SWEET MANDRICARDO... The hilarity. Somehow, even on broken legs and having to hold onto the wall, Sakyou manages to look pretty elegant. He is just one of those infuriating kinds of people.]
It helps if you put your weight toward the front as you move. Not too far, though.
[yeah they've been on this skating rink for two weeks]
[And yeah that IS infuriating, but Mandricardo will! Try to emulate! He leans forward - and with a WHOA WHOAH WHOAH - he leans back before he topples over.]
Shit. [Okay, now he's got it? Sort of.] Feel like my legs are gonna go out from under me.
[see mastermind THIS is the gay entertainment you need not your lame murders]
U-uh. Oh, like...them? [Yeah, that looks MUCH more stable. Wow. Show-offs. Mandricardo sets his jaw, before shifting to do the same, bumping shoulders with Sakyou a little with the movement.] Huh. That is better.
Very cozy, though, dang. Sakyou holds the arm tucked into his securely, though he's still keeping his free arm on the wall Just In Case. Trust no one... and trust no one's balance.]
It is, yes? A bit harder to move, but it isn't as though we're going very fast, anyway.
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[He's somehow happy, all the same. Emotions really are messy, huh. More of a mess than anything in the world.]
Y'know, you keep talkin' about how...you can only choose one thing or another. How you can have your revenge, and scatter your life, or stay back and allow yourself everything you want. But I don't think you have the right idea. I think...you can have both. You can have your mountains, but you can have your superficial dreams, too. Being selfish is okay. It may seem odd, to you, but I think they can coexist.
[One can strive for lofty goals, but carry quiet, small, selfish dreams in their heart. Just like the selfish dream made true to know that...he's made Sakyou happy.]
[His hand tucks some of the other's hair behind an ear, gently.]
You can be cruel to those demons of yours. You should be. But you shouldn't be so cruel to yourself, I think.
[Which is real hypocritical of him to say, but look. Look.]
You shouldn't apologize. Like I said...I'm happy you're happy. That outweighs anything that you think you're doing to me. I'm here for you, as your friend, always...okay?
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He shifts just a little, speaking more toward Mandricardo's neck than his shoulder directly.]
I'll apologize anyway. It's the most I can do for now.
[It doesn't make him feel well, but it at least lets him feel like he's doing something, which is better than nothing at all. His eyes close for a moment. He's tired. The hand tucking hair behind his ear is soothing, and he wishes he could just be dead and done with it - at least, part of him wishes for that. It's the part he personally thinks is less selfish.
He really is rotten.
...He laughs, just a little. Self-deprecating and wry.]
Though I'm surprised you'd say you're grateful for this date. I do think they're not meant to go this way. [...] You always seem to end up having to try comforting me for this or that. It would be good if you tire of it.
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...You're really giving me a run for my money here as a gloomy guy, Sakyou.
[He says, with a slightly amused huff - the hand at Sakyou's ear tweaks it, a little playfully. His attempt at lightening the mood which is, in Mandricardo's opinion, extremely wild for an introvert like him.]
But anyways, I...like this date. Because I like you. [There's a beat here, his cheeks warm as he tilts his head and leans against Sakyou.] And I wouldn't be a good friend if I...tired of comforting you. That's what friends do, right?
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He is absolutely a gloomy guy though, damn. But it appears Mandricardo's attempt to bring some levity into the situation works at least a little, since he's able to leave at least the heaviest of that surge of self-loathing to the side for the time being. JUST TWO FRIENDS GENTLY LEANING AGAINST EACH OTHER IN FRONT OF THE SKATE RINK the NPCs are probably waggling their brows as they skate by...
There's a beat but he eventually straightens his posture back up again, pulling away from Mandricardo and the comfort there, if only by a little. Just so he can look him in the eye, even though it feels a bit like he's saying impossible things.]
...I suppose it is. I hope that I can return the kindness that you've shown me, someday. Properly. I'm not sure I'll be able to, but- [...] -I'll give it all that I have.
[He's still torn, he still wants to push Mandricardo away, but... that little selfish part of him that wants happiness for himself figures he might as well do things right if he's going to stick around. "I'm sorry" is on the tip of his tongue again, but he bites it back for now.]
...Shall we skate, then? I think I've taken up quite enough of our time with this.
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You're already returning the kindness just by being here, Sakyou.
[His hands shift up to cup the other's cheeks, and he stares at him for a moment. Sakyou, Sakyou, Sakyou. This impossibly bitter man, full of self-hatred to the brim, yet...he's the one who asked out Mandricardo on this date, isn't he?]
[He leans in and presses his lips against the other's forehead before drawing back completely. A gentle gesture, like a promise.]
...Eh, I'm the one who was wastin' time... [A scratch of the cheek, sheepish, as he casts his gaze to the skating rink.] But sure. I don't really know how, though...
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But it's a soft and pleasant thing that sets his heart at ease, chasing away some of the gloom with an undeniable warmth. Hah... And Mandricardo had said he was like the sun. As he pulls back, Sakyou reaches forward, gently taking Mandricardo's hand in his own. A careful hold, as though to make up for the harshness of just a few moments prior. He gives it a very light squeeze and keeps it in his grasp.]
There is no time wasted with you.
[Sappy as hell! Embarrassing! He ducks his head a little, and is then quick to shift and move toward wherever the hell the skates are, talking as he goes.]
That's fine - I'll show you what I've learned, though I'm not so great at it myself just yet.
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[And when Sakyou ducks his head, he flusters, his cheeks a rosy pink - ah, did he really just do that? Guess he did. He won't take it back. He'll gladly let Sakyou take his hand as they move to the skating rink.]
Oh, you've done it before? It kinda looks complicated, but...fun, too.
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Anyway, he looks... vaguely sheepish at that...]
Ah... Well, not really. Rather - I practiced a bit earlier today, but it's harder than it looks. [He sucks at it and also his legs are still broken.] But it was fun, and I thought you might enjoy it, too. Once you get the hang of it, it's easier.
[Also clinging to the wall like a lifeline helps!]
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Well, anythin' needs practice, some stuff more than others. So like, to be expected. I really never thought one could move over ice like this, but I saw pictures in books of like...people jumping. It's real pretty.
[the wall will be his best friend]
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Ah... I couldn't even imagine doing that. Just going in a straight line is a bit challenging.
[At least he's honest. ANYWAY, GRABBIN SOME SKATES and then handing a pair to Mandricardo! He'll move over to a bench soon after so he can start putting them on. Carefully. Non-broken-ankle foot first.]
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You'll get the hang of it, I think.
[He thinks Sakyou is a lot more graceful than he is. But cool! Blade shoes! He'll sit next to the other, starting to put them on, but...looking with concern over at that ankle.]
Um. Are you sure it's okay for you to do this?
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Anyway he's just smiling! Reassuringly! Don't worry about it.]
I've already managed once or twice well enough. I just can't move as quickly as I'd otherwise be able to, most likely.
[He says most likely because he doesn't actually know how fast he'd be able to travel on ice skates without broken legs. He's got good balance but knife shoes are a different ballgame...]
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[vibrates anxiously....SAKYOU YOUR PHYSICAL STATE............]
Um, you can lean on me if you need to!
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But for today he's at least being 5% more chill than he would be without broken bones...]
It helps to keep a hand on the wall. Though if it isn't too much trouble, I should like to hold your hand, as well.
[Gay skating stability.]
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My hand? [He blinks, before giving an emphatic nod.] Sure. Anything that helps...
[are we going to yuri on ice this]
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Thank you.
[hell yeah we are. Sakyou will finish lacing up his skates, in any case. Once they're both done, he'll extend a hand back out.]
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[And he's got his on, too - its a bit weird "walking" on them for the little distance he has to go to the rink, but he'll reach out to hold Sakyou's hand.]
[He smiles.]
Let's go?
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But!! He gives Mandricardo's hand a little squeeze once it's in his, setting his free hand against the wall.]
Mm, let's.
[And stepping onto the ice! Thank god he's had at least one practice round by now so he won't send them both spiraling off into hell immediately.]
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[And...wow. Ice skating! He is definitely spreading legs wide and throwing out his free hand to keep balance, but....well, he's done well with weird tricks on horses, so this isn't too bad. For now.]
Wow. It feels way different than walking.
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SWEET MANDRICARDO... The hilarity. Somehow, even on broken legs and having to hold onto the wall, Sakyou manages to look pretty elegant. He is just one of those infuriating kinds of people.]
It helps if you put your weight toward the front as you move. Not too far, though.
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[And yeah that IS infuriating, but Mandricardo will! Try to emulate! He leans forward - and with a WHOA WHOAH WHOAH - he leans back before he topples over.]
Shit. [Okay, now he's got it? Sort of.] Feel like my legs are gonna go out from under me.
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Anyway this is pretty cute and very amusing and Sakyou is trying his best to not be a rude little shit about it.]
If you would like a little more stability, we can hook arms instead?
[Nodding toward some other NPC couple that's probably nyooming by arm in arm very sweetly and not crashing and burning like these dweebs.]
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U-uh. Oh, like...them? [Yeah, that looks MUCH more stable. Wow. Show-offs. Mandricardo sets his jaw, before shifting to do the same, bumping shoulders with Sakyou a little with the movement.] Huh. That is better.
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Very cozy, though, dang. Sakyou holds the arm tucked into his securely, though he's still keeping his free arm on the wall Just In Case. Trust no one... and trust no one's balance.]
It is, yes? A bit harder to move, but it isn't as though we're going very fast, anyway.
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[He's smiling a little - actually enjoying himself.]
Look, we're getting the hang of it, right?
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