Yeah, exactly. Some of us are more pragmatic than others, but we're forced to believe it because there was nothing else.
[ Nier does not feel as guilty at all—people should take back what was taken from them. If anyone killed Kainé, i would be sweating furiously Nier would not care about the lore anymore. He'd just be a wounded feral animal attacking every blond.
I can't believe Mandi gets this Nier isn't always nice and actually has bastard mentality lore. ]
The organized killers were willing to accept hatred, so that's fine with me. The guilt usually stays forever... But I also can't blame people for how they feel towards them, or for taking revenge.
[ VERY FUNNY ABOUT SAKYOU THOUGH. ]
... I don't know. We were told to play along by Kaoruko and by the dorm heads after they became themselves. If that's the case, it should have been. [ He pats Mandi's shoulder: ] For a villain, you're a good guy, Mandricardo.
[where is the au where nier ferally attacks every blond person damn]
[But he nods at that.]
I honestly....I honestly was planning to kill Byleth, after she was revealed. Not even necessarily out of revenge, but...I didn't want her to have to go through another murder. I thought at the time that she was brainwashed.
[Which was....not exactly what was happening, there.]
I would've taken all the blame. I didn't care. I knew I would...be in the wrong for that.
[He would've walked to his death like it was nothing. It was what he deserved.]
[The pat on the shoulder makes him blush, but the thought that comes after....makes it disappear as his face pales, slightly. She...murdered? Murdered who...? I guess...compelled...]
[What does he feel about that? He was annoyed at Dimitri for covering for Maya, and had voted for her regardless, because even if compelled, she did it. She did the deed. And now, he knows that Nier covered up something like that, and it...]
[He doesn't know, anymore.]
[This game....what is wrong? What is right? Again, another example. People are selfish. People are always selfish. Mandricardo put himself aside, time and time again, didn't even allow himself to be truly upset in order not to hurt others, and...]
[ WHY DID NO ONE KILL KAINE? would have loved to see nier challenge everyone's love for him ]
... It's fine. I considered killing her, too, but not for such nice reasons.
[ So............. ]
Yeah, she confessed earlier to killing Sieghart because of compulsion. She... Was the first case. She was ready to get caught and die. That was what she wanted and she refused help at first—and I...
[ I can't... Imagine my life without her. If she was gone, then I would have gone, too. I would want to be where she was. Nier frowns because he isn't sure if that depressing thought is projected. He doesn't want Mandricardo to hear his desperation, or to think he's looking for pity. ]
I think so because you're doing what you think is right to everyone. You're considerate of people. [ ... ] I acted selfishly in comparison.
[ At least Nier is aware he's a fucking hypocrite. ]
[Because. Looks at a certain epic poem. Sometimes, revenge is a Big Thing! Sometimes, you are pro-revenge! It's fine!]
And I...see.
[Nier...really loves her with all his heart, huh. That's true love, I guess. He sighs - it just makes him wonder, now, if him being willing to vote for Wang Lu in the case he ever did a murder would be heartless. He doesn't know.]
...No, no. I'm selfish deep down, Nier. I've got an inferiority complex, y'know. I'm envious of people and what they have. And I want to be a part of that. So I do my best to...be the best I can be. But I think I'm just...not made to be selfless in the first place. You really looked out for me, always. So that's real considerate, I think.
[ Sure. Mandricardo can see it as love because it is, but it's also codependency which is what Wang Lu and Mandricardo lack, apparently. Which is... Good for them? Killing is bad! Nier knows that.
Nier looks at him, frowning a bit at the complex bit since he does think you've only ever been a kind friend to me. ]
There's nothing wrong with being a little selfish... You deserve to want a little and be happy, Mandricardo. You know that, right?
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[ Nier does not feel as guilty at all—people should take back what was taken from them. If anyone killed Kainé, i would be sweating furiously Nier would not care about the lore anymore. He'd just be a wounded feral animal attacking every blond.
I can't believe Mandi gets this Nier isn't always nice and actually has bastard mentality lore. ]
The organized killers were willing to accept hatred, so that's fine with me. The guilt usually stays forever... But I also can't blame people for how they feel towards them, or for taking revenge.
[ VERY FUNNY ABOUT SAKYOU THOUGH. ]
... I don't know. We were told to play along by Kaoruko and by the dorm heads after they became themselves. If that's the case, it should have been. [ He pats Mandi's shoulder: ] For a villain, you're a good guy, Mandricardo.
[ I covered Kainé's murder and I'd do it again. ]
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[But he nods at that.]
I honestly....I honestly was planning to kill Byleth, after she was revealed. Not even necessarily out of revenge, but...I didn't want her to have to go through another murder. I thought at the time that she was brainwashed.
[Which was....not exactly what was happening, there.]
I would've taken all the blame. I didn't care. I knew I would...be in the wrong for that.
[He would've walked to his death like it was nothing. It was what he deserved.]
[The pat on the shoulder makes him blush, but the thought that comes after....makes it disappear as his face pales, slightly. She...murdered? Murdered who...? I guess...compelled...]
[What does he feel about that? He was annoyed at Dimitri for covering for Maya, and had voted for her regardless, because even if compelled, she did it. She did the deed. And now, he knows that Nier covered up something like that, and it...]
[He doesn't know, anymore.]
[This game....what is wrong? What is right? Again, another example. People are selfish. People are always selfish. Mandricardo put himself aside, time and time again, didn't even allow himself to be truly upset in order not to hurt others, and...]
[Well. What a fool he was, huh.]
I'm not, really. But...thanks for thinking so.
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... It's fine. I considered killing her, too, but not for such nice reasons.
[ So............. ]
Yeah, she confessed earlier to killing Sieghart because of compulsion. She... Was the first case. She was ready to get caught and die. That was what she wanted and she refused help at first—and I...
[ I can't... Imagine my life without her. If she was gone, then I would have gone, too. I would want to be where she was. Nier frowns because he isn't sure if that depressing thought is projected. He doesn't want Mandricardo to hear his desperation, or to think he's looking for pity. ]
I think so because you're doing what you think is right to everyone. You're considerate of people. [ ... ] I acted selfishly in comparison.
[ At least Nier is aware he's a fucking hypocrite. ]
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[Because. Looks at a certain epic poem. Sometimes, revenge is a Big Thing! Sometimes, you are pro-revenge! It's fine!]
And I...see.
[Nier...really loves her with all his heart, huh. That's true love, I guess. He sighs - it just makes him wonder, now, if him being willing to vote for Wang Lu in the case he ever did a murder would be heartless. He doesn't know.]
...No, no. I'm selfish deep down, Nier. I've got an inferiority complex, y'know. I'm envious of people and what they have. And I want to be a part of that. So I do my best to...be the best I can be. But I think I'm just...not made to be selfless in the first place. You really looked out for me, always. So that's real considerate, I think.
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Nier looks at him, frowning a bit at the complex bit since he does think you've only ever been a kind friend to me. ]
There's nothing wrong with being a little selfish... You deserve to want a little and be happy, Mandricardo. You know that, right?