[ his face drops, realizing that mandricardo picked up on his intrusive thought. even so, he gets a follow up: the very same creature with his leg in its mouth. and because i forgot it in my last tag: these thoughts are in black and white, and the edges are a little blurry. ]
...Do you mean Ammit?
[ trying to play it off like he definitely didn't just doxx himself ]
[ that thought of ammit is going to play over and over and over and over. ]
We all die.
[ he lets himself be hugged. it's nice. he's on his depressed thoughts death spiral, but he can let himself have this tiny sliver of peace despite that. actually you know what
[I know it's hard. I know it is. I've been there. It's going to be okay...]
[He won't detach from the hug just yet.]
We're going to find a way to wrench your memories back from the jaws of this damn place, okay? And give it a good mauling for good measure. We'll do it.
Mandricardo, I don't want you to use more vouchers on me. Giving them up was a choice... I'd rather have most of my vision back instead of memories that this place could manipulate.
[ since he can argue about something now, he seems to be less sad, so that's cool ]
I can see fine. I just can't see colors anymore. It was worse... but that's why I traded. Three of us were nearly blind, and we wouldn't have been able to escape if we all lost our vision.
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[I even drew them over this week.]
I wouldn't.
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...You should probably get back to what you were doing. I have to get inside before curfew.
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I wasn't doing anything besides checking on people. Which includes you, by the way.
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That's still leaves seven people doesn't it? I know Rita and I are in the same dorm, but all the same...
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[Gator...? Head....?]
H-Hold on. Was that...the goddess? The one who eats souls...?
["There's nothing at the end"? Is that her...?]
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...Do you mean Ammit?
[ trying to play it off like he definitely didn't just doxx himself ]
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[Oh, that sure is a leg! That sure is Malik's leg!!!]
[His hand grasps the other's shoulder.]
Hey. Hey, Malik. This place likes to fuck with us. Even if it looked like that goddess or whatever...you're here, now. Your soul is here. Okay?
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ok we're back. it seems like some of his emotions came with him this time, and his upset gets more apparent. ]
Only until I die! Then she-- Then that's the end. There's nothing after she eats your heart. There's no afterlife. Nothing.
[ even though he's not being very animated, mandricardo can probably feel him start to tremble. ]
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[He's dropping the water bottle so he can embrace Malik, pulling him into a hug.]
You're here. I'm here. You're not dead. I'm here for you. You don't have to worry about that. Just...d-deep breaths, okay?
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We all die.
[ he lets himself be hugged. it's nice. he's on his depressed thoughts death spiral, but he can let himself have this tiny sliver of peace despite that. actually you know what
he hugs back. ]
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[You're here. You're here. Not there. You're here.]
[The hug back is a bit surprising, but he won't let go.]
You still have so much to look forward to, okay?
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[ he doean't sound convinced. the hug is brief, as he lets his arms drop and hang lamely ]
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[I know it's hard. I know it is. I've been there. It's going to be okay...]
[He won't detach from the hug just yet.]
We're going to find a way to wrench your memories back from the jaws of this damn place, okay? And give it a good mauling for good measure. We'll do it.
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I don't know if it's the same as everyone else who forgot temporarily... [ like lucretia. ]
It was part of the game to make a sacrifice. Since I gave them up willingly, I might not get them back.
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I could use vouchers for that cause.
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You should use your vouchers for something more meaningful. People get hurt here all the time.
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Yeah, but I get vouchers weekly. It's fine.
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[But I want to.]
I...see. Well, if you want your vision back, then...
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I can see fine. I just can't see colors anymore. It was worse... but that's why I traded. Three of us were nearly blind, and we wouldn't have been able to escape if we all lost our vision.