[ he will allow this but only because if he pulls away now it's going to be awkward and weird. he's still a little fussy about it though, like the little brother he is, being looked after by someone else. ]
It does that, sometimes. It will stop in a minute.
It's from a field trip. I don't-- I don't know the details. It's like a curse. Mollymauk has similar ones, but I never asked him about them. I don't think the information is going to give me any sense of comfort, after everything else that happened during that trip.
[ haha oh wow there's a lot of feelings all of a sudden.
any other time he'd fight back, push away, and honestly? he really wants to. he doesn't deserve this, no matter what mandricardo says. but after this weekend? after everything he's been through?
fuck it. he's allowing himself this. he can't fight back with words, so he doesn't say anything at all. ]
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I really don't want to talk about this place has control over us right now.
[ looks at his hand. hm. his forehead eye must be bleeding a little? gross. ]
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[Looks at his hand.]
[Looks at his forehead.]
[Draws up his sleeve over his hand and reaches over to dab a little.]
You're bleeding.
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[ he will allow this but only because if he pulls away now it's going to be awkward and weird. he's still a little fussy about it though, like the little brother he is, being looked after by someone else. ]
It does that, sometimes. It will stop in a minute.
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...Why does it do that? I don't remember you had it before.
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[And he draws his hand back.]
...Does it not... [And a furrowing of his brows, trying to find the word.] Worry you, regardless?
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[ he's like one step removed from a ptsd flashback ]
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[Hm.]
Do you...still hear the voice?
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[ he glances down to another eye that's on the back of his hand. ]
...I think about it. Remember it.
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[Something...flickers in his expression?]
[He reaches out, and just. Holds Malik's hand.]
I don't know what that voice wanted to punish you for, but...I don't think you deserved it.
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any other time he'd fight back, push away, and honestly? he really wants to. he doesn't deserve this, no matter what mandricardo says. but after this weekend? after everything he's been through?
fuck it. he's allowing himself this. he can't fight back with words, so he doesn't say anything at all. ]
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[He swings their hands a little.]
This is good.
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What is?
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This. Holding hands. Doing this with you.
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[ still holding hands tho. ]
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[are you gonna call out his Vibes, Malik]
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[ he fucking hates this. ]
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[He's vibing! Malik is nice to talk to!]
Placating assumes I would have something to get out of you. What do I get out of you besides you?
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[ despite his feelings, he's been relatively austere up until now. but his face is starting to turn red. ]
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[Just! Shrugging!]
...Are you sick, Malik?
[The red cheeks...]
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[ to all of that. sure. ]
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[Swinging their hands a little! Back to going to the cafeteria.]
Tea will be good.
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[ He's not going to say anything else can we please get to the cafeteria PLEASE he is DYING ]
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[But they're here! Time to get some tea! He'll just drag Malik over to the selection.]
Do you have a preference?
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Just black tea is fine. Or... uh, black tea and mint.
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