[ his face drops, realizing that mandricardo picked up on his intrusive thought. even so, he gets a follow up: the very same creature with his leg in its mouth. and because i forgot it in my last tag: these thoughts are in black and white, and the edges are a little blurry. ]
...Do you mean Ammit?
[ trying to play it off like he definitely didn't just doxx himself ]
[ that thought of ammit is going to play over and over and over and over. ]
We all die.
[ he lets himself be hugged. it's nice. he's on his depressed thoughts death spiral, but he can let himself have this tiny sliver of peace despite that. actually you know what
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I guess.
[ a beat. ]
...I gave up a lot of my memory so we could get through the game. I don't remember... what I gave up, just that it was memories.
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[I really hate this place.]
I...see. For a game? The hell? Ugh. No matter. I'm sure it'll start to come back. If not...well, I have some memories I've kept for you, okay?
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Can I see them?
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[He reveals more of them as he pulls back his sleeves.]
Here. Isis, and Rishid. [Two cartouches.] And....you said this was the "moon". [Just hieroglyphics.]
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...I don't remember these two. [ isis and rishid. ]
[ I've given up everything. ]
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Rishid was someone who you said worked for your family. He was very loyal to you. I...don't know who Isis was, for you. But you said she was family.
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I don't remember them.
[ not having sad icons is killing me rn ]
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[It's going to be okay. Has to be. It'll come back with time. If not, I have vouchers, I can do something, maybe...]
Like I said, I'll still keep these memories for you. Until they come back for you.
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[ I can live without them. I won't have a choice. ]
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Even if I say not to, I know you're going to do it anyway.
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Of course I will. I wouldn't let someone write on me with no reason.
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[ you don't even need to read his thoughts to know he's lying. ]
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[I even drew them over this week.]
I wouldn't.
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...You should probably get back to what you were doing. I have to get inside before curfew.
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I wasn't doing anything besides checking on people. Which includes you, by the way.
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That's still leaves seven people doesn't it? I know Rita and I are in the same dorm, but all the same...
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[Gator...? Head....?]
H-Hold on. Was that...the goddess? The one who eats souls...?
["There's nothing at the end"? Is that her...?]
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...Do you mean Ammit?
[ trying to play it off like he definitely didn't just doxx himself ]
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[Oh, that sure is a leg! That sure is Malik's leg!!!]
[His hand grasps the other's shoulder.]
Hey. Hey, Malik. This place likes to fuck with us. Even if it looked like that goddess or whatever...you're here, now. Your soul is here. Okay?
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ok we're back. it seems like some of his emotions came with him this time, and his upset gets more apparent. ]
Only until I die! Then she-- Then that's the end. There's nothing after she eats your heart. There's no afterlife. Nothing.
[ even though he's not being very animated, mandricardo can probably feel him start to tremble. ]
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[He's dropping the water bottle so he can embrace Malik, pulling him into a hug.]
You're here. I'm here. You're not dead. I'm here for you. You don't have to worry about that. Just...d-deep breaths, okay?
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We all die.
[ he lets himself be hugged. it's nice. he's on his depressed thoughts death spiral, but he can let himself have this tiny sliver of peace despite that. actually you know what
he hugs back. ]
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[You're here. You're here. Not there. You're here.]
[The hug back is a bit surprising, but he won't let go.]
You still have so much to look forward to, okay?
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[ he doean't sound convinced. the hug is brief, as he lets his arms drop and hang lamely ]
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